Less Is More

You know, i find it really strange, the song i'm listening to is always related to what i'm thinking at the moment and relates to what i want to write about... Destiny makes wonders i guess....

I sure am glad i waited a couple of days to write, i was so extremely pissed off this past week i couldn't help it, but it's all cooler now, not entirely fixed yet, but i'm cooler, at least until now, that is. Anyways, word on the steet is that i lost a co-applicant for my student loan so i can go to canada, i just cannot believe the way it happened, until the last moment possible, over a "reason" that i just can't deal with right now. So, now i'm 2/5ths short of the money i need to demonstrate that i have money to stay over there and do all my student visa paperwork. My course is only a meer 5 months away, less than that actually, and i need to do the same things i needed to do 3 months ago! it's been 3 months of going back and forth with the loan papers for WHAT!, having to start all over again!!!

Anyways... It's just a bump in the road, i guess the less help i get from others less burdens on my shoulders, so yea, "Less IS More". I've known from the get-go that this process would be a hard one, a tough one, something that will help me learn and live in this crazy world we live in. All i know is that i'm one step farther than i was before, but i won't let that hurt, cuz if i can't catch up i will lose something even greater than money, i'll lose confidence in my profession, in my passion, and i can't have that now, don't want a quarter-life crisis like the rest of the 20-somethings out there.

I'm out.

Zombie

"in your head.... in your head.... zombie... zombie..."

I think that's how i am right now.... a zombie in my own world.

All I can say is that i have done it!. I did my next step in my Canadian adventure, the Loan papers are out, just need my super co-signers
to send them to the loan company and that's it. As of what i know they are all good for me receiving it, so, next up is my visa. I just wanna GO TO CANADA ALREADY! Vancouver looks like an awesome city, i can't wait, I get nervous all the time recently, how am I gonna live on my own for a year, i'm gonna have to get used to doing everything by myself, but what keeps me grounded and happy is that i know i'm gonna be doing what i want to do, what i have to do, what i need to do so i can continue my life without any regrets, without any frustrations, and fulfilling my life-long dream of working in this medium that i just love.

I guess my music says it all... now i've got playing "Dont Panic" by Coldplay.... and yea.... i shouldn't panic, we live in a beautiful world, i just wanna get to know more of it!!! woohoo!!! in 5 months i'll be 'on my own'...

So as of now, i'm turning this into my countdown to VFS, because, well, basically, that's where my mind is and it should be, i've got a great deal ahead of me and i surely cant wait. But of course, i want to enjoy the rest of the time i've still got in my TJ. Catch u later...